Last night was a weird night. I ended up typing the last post while i sat with the cowboy's mom. I had a little bit of a cry sesh with her. i don't think she realized i was talking about him but its no matter, i needed to figure out how it is that i can trust people. Well he just is a loving man and i need to trust him.. as i said before i cannot let what has happened in my past affect my present or future. Its not fair to them and its certainly not fair to me.
We went to my brothers house last night, in fact, we are still here.. There was a card game we played with my brother's family, a few of his friends and my mom as it was her birthday yesterday, so we played and drank and well i got a little lit last night. at first, I noticed Cowboy on his phone and had it out so much. i let him know that it bothered me that he had it out and i've just never seen him so glued to the phone. he said once we get to my brothers house, he will put it away.. and he mostly did.. so it was a fine evening.. but in the drunken stupor that was me last night i got over it. I just snuggled and cuddled with him and he kept telling me he loved me and asked "you're mine, right? no one elses?" god what woman doesn't want to hear that. of course i'm all his. he truly is a great man.
this morning my niece said "when i came home from work last night you guys were spooning together and you slept adorably" it was one of the sweetest things to hear.
I have a long way to go on this road but i definitely want to keep things up and keep this guy around.. stay tuned. there will be more to come
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